Well guess I better not keep those waiting

         Well as a lot of you know I have had a lot on my mind at work and facebook lol...... I have been posting things that refer to change and I want and need to explain it to you; as well as track my personal growth so I started this blog. A lot of you that are going to read this are my fellow co-workers and I feel that because this journey will eventually change me I believe that you have every right to know. As ya'll now I am a pretty big one armed, butch dyke and you know how I am. Approx. about six years ago I started a thing called testostorone because I believed I was a straight man that was just trapped in a womans body and at that time looking back I always felt that way but anyhow, I took "T" for a few months but had to stop because my fear of upsetting my family.
        Well now I am twenty-eight and still have the longing to feel comfortable in my body because right now I don't. I am not the person I believe I should and need to be. The feelings that I feel everyday haunt me and lead me to self-destructive behavior and that is why I AM going to transition into a man. I will then and only then sucessfully begin to live. Now I may lose some of you as my friends and I may even lose my family but that Is a risk that I am willing to take to be happy and alive. Well it is getting late so I will continue to update on here as well as maybe set up a youtube for visual updates. Thank you to all who have read and I hope you stick around.